Hate Your Way

People Need to Mind Their Own

Megan — Mon, 20 Feb 2012 02:40:03 +0000

What I hate more than anything is how people think they can offer some kind of input in my relationship with Dan. Which most definitely is not the case? What I want to hear is people being supportive of me; despite any misgivings they have, but when it comes from my own sister that just pisses me off.

Apparently my sister implied that I was a bad girlfriend because I had Dan cook one night and made him clean up (which he didn’t, I did). Also she bitched about the fact that we were always over there at her apartment.

Then several weeks before that incident, my Aunt had said something about how I always spent all my time with Dan and never did anything else. For those family members who may or may not have access to this blog:

First off, Dan and I rarely see each other apart from maybe 30-60 minutes a week. The only time I actually get to hang out with him, is when I’m over at my sisters and he comes over (once a week if that), or when he’s working at a specific site and I can go up and see him, but it’s never for long because he’s working.

Second, my sister is living RENT FREE in an apartment owned by my grandparents. Never mind the fact all that I’ve done for Dan that he’s even told me that him cooking dinner is the least he can do for me.

Everyone wants to be critical of my relationship; but in fact, instead of looking at mine and critiquing it, you should look at yours because there’s nothing wrong with mine.

It just aggravates me that people want to stick their noses in when it doesn’t concern them. I’m happy with Dan. Just because you aren’t in your relationship doesn’t mean you can try to ruin mine.

Get over yourself and grow up.

What I haven’t been working on…

Megan — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 03:23:51 +0000

Haven’t worked on the website. Haven’t worked on any content. Haven’t worked on any design except my Aunt’s website. Nada…nothing.

The only thing I’ve accomplished is falling madly in love with my boyfriend , spending time with my niece <3 and last but not least, replaced my stolen phone with a brand new Droid Razr in Purple !

You deserve to rot in hell.

Megan — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 03:24:04 +0000

To the asshole who took my phone: FUCK YOU.

BAMF.

Megan — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 02:03:28 +0000

Totally am doing well in my Logic, Design & Programming class right now! Which shouldn’t surprise me, but it does. The class is so boring and so mundane, that it makes me not want to do the homework/assignments.
But alas, I did 2 of my 3 quizzes without having to look up ANYTHING in the book and I’m so proud of myself.

Well, other than that, not much going on in my little world. Still working on the website and if you didn’t see the last post, I lost everything on my mac. Totally have to start over now, but don’t worry. My themes and such that I was working on for this site are and have been uploaded for some time.

<--- Totally how I feel right now. Pure bliss!

BAMF = Badass Motherfucker

I lost it all!

Megan — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 09:55:08 +0000

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I lost EVERYTHING on my hard drive on my Mac. NOOOO!

Back in ’09

Megan — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 09:36:08 +0000

I wrote the following back in May 2009, mainly for the fact I was annoyed with guys in general who kept feeling sorry for themselves. Now after dealing (and still dealing) with severe depression, I reread what I had wrote, realizing how inspiring it was. Thus, I thought I would share it with you, the readers. Severe Depression is serious and while not all people can simply “snap” out of it, it doesn’t mean that it’s the end. Understand that people who have dealt with the depression, know that its a constant battle. So without further ado, here is my note from facebook:

It seems like eternity ago, but in reality it was just an hour ago. I’m tired of people feeling sorry for themselves, and swearing there is nothing to live for. I’m tired of people saying if they don’t find a man or a woman by a certain age, they’ll end their lives or swear them off. I’m tired of boys, trying to act like men, who are suppose to be grown. I’m tired of people saying that I don’t understand, or they don’t want to talk about it. Well, let me tell you something.

I know what I’m talking about, and am completely aware of it. It took me years to even acknowledge the fact that I was suffering from severe depression, when my life hit rock bottom. I thought about killing myself every day, thought I’d be better off dead. Hoping if I ended my life, I wouldn’t have to feel the pain anymore. My health was gone, my happiness was gone…my life was gone. I lived to simply be an empty shell walking the earth.

I don’t know what happened, or how it even happened, but I snapped. I became weary of being depressed, and angry that I was depressed. I was mad at myself for letting myself, my mind and my body get to that point.

Life is worth living, it’s something to be proud of, to be happy and experience it. You may get dealt a really bad hand right after another, but that’s life. You can’t change it anymore than you can change the weather.

I want to be surrounded by people who want to live life, not destroy it, or get mad when I get too close to the truth. You can pout, and be upset as much as you want, but when everything is said and done, its still the truth.

There will be a man or a woman for you, whether it’s today, next month, or the next 5 years. You can be turned down, turn people down, but somewhere, deep within us, we never quit hoping for that one person, who completes us.

You may not feel emotions, or may be void of anything else, but all it takes is one person…one person who cares to make a difference. And if you can’t accept that help, then you never wanted to be saved in the first place, and I won’t feel pitty, remorse, or even angry, because you didn’t want someone to help you, to help make you realize, that life is worth living.

I have to live with the constant fear of slipping back into that depression, that I fought so hard to get out. My morale may be hit every once in awhile, but that’s life, you take it as it’s given to you. You, nor anyone else can bring me down, because I refuse to go down without a fight.

I would rather be alone for the rest of my life, then spending my life with someone who doesn’t appreciate it.

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Happy New Year!

Megan — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 06:31:08 +0000

Working on a new design, even closer to being finished than the previous one! Take a look and let us know if you like it. I can’t wait till the entire thing is done! I’m working on some CSS and some of the pages, but the design itself is done!

I has new smilies! Boo-yah! ~~Now I just need to figure out how to get the image to be centered vertically with the text.~~ Enjoy and i can’t wait till I actually blog again WITH the new design/content! Woo!

Half Way Done!

Megan — Sun, 18 Dec 2011 20:43:32 +0000

YOWSERS! The past several ~~weeks~~ months have been absolutely, 100%, without a doubt, AMAZING! I honestly think I’ve never been happier than I am now; and that I owe to my beautiful, beautiful niece, Rylee, and my pretty amazing boyfriend, Dan!

Where to begin? Haha, I have no idea where I even left off, which is pretty sad. Should start with the website, and state the new design is coming alone fairly well. Thinking about changing some stuff and recoding it to be easier. Apparently I decided to set it up in the most complex way possible (figures). So the footer doesn’t stay at the bottom if there isn’t enough content to push it down, which annoys me.

Could be worse, I guess. I could still not have a design.

OH! So, he’s totally wanting me to go to Michigan for Christmas to meet his parents and I’m super nervous. It’s completely different him spending and meeting everyone on Thanksgiving because in the end he could leave. I will be there for an untold amount of time (depends on work) and I’m extremely nervous.

I seriously hope his parents like me; never been worried about parents really liking me before. He makes me happy, and I’ll do whatever I can to make him happy.

Totally going to Circle Centre tonight to see the Christmas lights and (hopefully) shop for his parents, since I want to get them a gift.

I really hope this (between Dan and I) lasts’ a long time.

[Edit] We went to Circle Centre and had the brillant idea of climbing the Monument Circle to the observation deck using the stairs. 300+ steps = near passing out.

Lack of Visitors

Megan — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 05:54:49 +0000

So due to lack of visitors actually coming to my website, I have created how I want my design to look, and the next test is to code it for wordpress, along with creating, finishing and uploading all of my content (downloads, resources, etc). But until then, I guess a sneak peak will just have to suffice for now.

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Hopefully you will enjoy it, and also if you do visit this site, leave a comment if you have advertising because I’ll most definitely be interested in buying/applying for it!

Oh, and Dan and I are a-okay!

Sweet Diggity Batman!

Megan — Mon, 05 Dec 2011 11:46:13 +0000

I don’t want anyone to think I have forgotten about blogging or this website. I’m secretly working in the background!

I am putting together some idea’s as far as themes and how I want it to look (which is a lot more difficult then I originally thought), and have been working on some of my other sites as well. Don’t worry, the new design will be up and operational pretty soon.

I have also combined my Archives with this blog so everything from 2003-2008 are now merged with my current posts.